Life Is But a Dream

First time been to the National museum in Oslo after it opened in 2022. A short 1.5 hours visit, while I was waiting for Nina and Karo. Cool arts of all sorts and definitely recommend it. It costed over 6 billion NOK taxer payers money to build. So go check it out next time you are in Oslo.                                                  

Like Bojack Horseman very much and came across this beautiful song at the end of season 3  

  — in memory of A — Found some of A's old posts on love, friendship, religion and being busy with things A Life in the World of Andreas (spirous.blogspot.com) Thursday, June 20th, 1996 One thing makes me wonder.... actually several things make me wonder, but now it's this thing. Friends can't understand how I love, my former girlfriend left me several years ago and since I still love her it's not possible to find somebody else. Then they try to help me by saying I have to go on, forget her and find somebody else. I try to tell them that feelings doesn't work like that for me, if I love somebody it's 100%. I can't help it, I just have to learn to live with that. Bad luck for me if the one I end up loving does not love me back.... It scares me when people talk about love as something that can be controlled or talked about as something rational. People try to tell me they have loved someone just as strong as I have, but when their love was not returned they st...

— in memoryof A — Things seem to be going ok these days. Work is busy, but not much travel needed any more, which is good at the moment. And I started a new routine ever since I came back from the China trip in February, partially due to the time zone difference. I started to get up at 5:30 and be in the office at around 7:00. It has worked out pretty well so far and it really give a new energy to go through each day. I hope I get to continue this routine. Together with the change, I started the rowing session everyday after work. I have to say it is not quite possible to keep that going everyday, but the daily alarms give me some good positive vibes anyway. But seriously, I am getting better to get myself some training everyday, with some tennis, some ski, some hiking, and mostly long walks if that counts. Silly should get some credits as well and she never complains if I feels lazy all day or suddenly decide to bring her to Dalesnuten. She is the best. It is enough about my new routi...

— in memory of A — Human beings are complicated. I was crying walking my dog in a gloomy evening yesterday, and suddenly started to smile to strangers who were smiling at the dog. I always tell people that I am a pragmatic person and i will be doing fine. This is not something I can get over with. I can't describe how sensitive I have become in the past months. Nevertheless, I do feel that I can be quite blunt to emotions at times. I often took things too seriously and looked for the "true nature" of things, maybe due to the academic training of mine. It often takes more time and a bit of aloneness for me to realize that things are not the same any more. I do not know it is good or bad, but I think it carried me through the toughest period somehow. The days and nights with A were full of genuine joys, despite some few challenges and frustrations we both had. I genuinely thought I was the luckiest person on earth to have him by my side. Even so in the toughest periods when...