Life Is But a Dream

Today our dear friend Ralf went on his way to becoming dust in the universe. Everything was a bit too peaceful this morning. The day was bright, still but a bit cold. The house is full, fireplace lit, music on, people waking up, dogs wandering around. I was playing magic for the first time with Torb and Bjørn. There came the heavy breath suddenly from him. The breaks became longer and longer and the silence getting louder.  It did not last too long until we realized that the last breaths were coming close. It reminded me of the last few moments of Andreas. He has not eaten anything for more than three days. I can imagine the weakness he bore. Weirdly the effort to breath did not sound desperate as one may suspect. And it did not seem that he was trying to live longer or he just became too weak to try. It must be hard, but the process appeared rather peaceful, unlike the people around him.  This is a truly sad day, even though he wanted us to celebrate his life rather than...

Losing myself, looking at a tree the tree does not respond Up standing in the quiet autumn brisk, majestically Taking in all the glories of the morning cold and darkness  Still - like no witness presents like the darkness itself or blinding light Cows wander far away whispering to people sleeping tight And the tree only reveals deep memories A night owl breaks the silence The dark blue bleeds into red and orange It is someone's blood or kiss or both  a man is missed a man as majestic as the tree rooting deep for the soft part of the world water drains down the sun kills all the sweet dreams nov, 2025

 - in memory of A It is 02 January 2025, one year after A passed away. I did not plan to write anything intially.  It's been a hectic day, mostly with the cabin stuff. I went to the cabin yesterday and stayed overnight for the first time since the extension project was finished in October. Everything (old and new) worked, except the cold weather. It was not cozy and I had to pack up everything again after one night. Silly never complained and she just followed along. This day is special, but somehow I lost a bit of my enery to live it like it is special. I occupied myself with shopping trips to Ikea and Jysk for the cabin, listening to comedy podcast episodes that I have listened to for at least two times, or browsing boring news. I somehow did not want to keep my brain clear or idle. The snow today actually managed to slow down many things. On my way home, I passed the Byhagen nursing home A lived in his last months. The snow and traffic stopped me right beside it. It is prob...